Jump, girl. Jump! (he shouts from below)
But there is no net! No parachute!
May I catch you? (he asks, eyebrows engaged)
Will you?
No response
She glances at her current surroundings.
Familiar. Comfortable. Fine.
Jump, girl, jump!
Her eyes wander over the tips of her toes and into the abyss below.
Can't see too much.
He stands down there looking up.
The brightness surrounding him more blurry in this fog
She fingers the scar below her collar bone. A reminder of her last jump... and she recalls the bright colors, fresh scents, sweetest tastes...
Memory tells her the roses were exquisite.
But the thorns -- thorns.
Her hand lingers over the scar.
A deep breath.
It is fine here. Comfortable. Safe.
She backs away from the edge.
She hears his footsteps retreat.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Saturday Morning Hangover in Brooklyn
Sitting on a bench in Cobble Hill park watching a child's birthday party. All the Brooklyn parents - around my age... Maybe a few years older. The kids ranging from 0-4 years old. The dads remind me of my college friends as they chat over pizza and the Moms hold babies & chat too. Everyone calling after the kids that wander too far away... Milo! Marlow! Ruby! Ella! Come back over here.
I sit on this bench, eat my bagel & nurse this hangover... feeling like I wandered into a film. "This is your life" had you chosen door #1. This is the ghost of the future or the past or the something... You live in our building, on our street, in our neighborhood, but we don't inhabit the same world.
Its time for the kids' naps as the party comes to a close and I head home for my nap too.
I sit on this bench, eat my bagel & nurse this hangover... feeling like I wandered into a film. "This is your life" had you chosen door #1. This is the ghost of the future or the past or the something... You live in our building, on our street, in our neighborhood, but we don't inhabit the same world.
Its time for the kids' naps as the party comes to a close and I head home for my nap too.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
The/m/en
First there was he.
And he found me.
And now you.
I can't find you.
And he found me.
He was there for so long that we became we.
And then he wasn't there at all.
And then he wasn't there at all.
Thankfully.
After he, I searched for him.
I found him unexpectedly
when I wasn't even trying to see
Him and I became a we and I was sure I'd never be
without him again.
Until I was.
I thought him someone he wasn't.
And now you.
I can't find you.
There was he and there was him and now all I do is search for you.
You seem to be so sure. So real.
But where are you?
You are not.
Here.
You are not.
Here.
You can come find me.
I am done looking for you, as I am done with he and him before.
I am done looking for you, as I am done with he and him before.
I've found me
and she
is better than (all of) you.
I shouldn't need more.
and she
is better than (all of) you.
I shouldn't need more.
Friday, May 2, 2014
Emerged / Caged
Just when I thought you were vanished. A whisper. A cloud.
You appear.
Cheeks aglow.
Smiling.
Happy.
On a hike
with a ring
in a box.
Innocent new girl by your side.
Something to feed on.
You - Revived.
Alive.
In my head, always dead. Or a monster. Partly caged.
And that poor girl, smile like a song.
Not realizing her sentence.
Monsters roam free. But not long for she.
You appear.
Cheeks aglow.
Smiling.
Happy.
On a hike
with a ring
in a box.
Innocent new girl by your side.
Something to feed on.
You - Revived.
Alive.
In my head, always dead. Or a monster. Partly caged.
And that poor girl, smile like a song.
Not realizing her sentence.
Monsters roam free. But not long for she.
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