Text Message Apology

"Sry?" No, thank you.
That's not an apology.
I'm worth more letters.

Where we are now

It really is over, I think, as I hang up the phone.

Was that a stranger? Or the man I can't let go of?

"Looking forward to it," you responded. "Yeah. Should be interesting."
Like I'm a host - interviewing you on your latest project?
Or a girl fiddling her pony tail, making small talk after your show in the theater lobby?

I guess it is over.
I guess it really is.
I needed to hear how far we have come.
Away.
You a bit faster than I.
Definitely ahead (If not speeding away)
From our shared life, shared bed.

I guess it is over.
I am sure I knew
but ached
for anything else to be true.

I know I changed the future once. Can you ache so hard you change the present too?
 
This time machine is whirling. I'm not even sure how I got inside,
but I know I'm the one who opened the door.
Do I regret it now?
Or will I feel relief when I exit on the other end and shake hands with my future self?

Thank you, she'll say.
Welcome to Love. Welcome to Life.

"Looking forward to it," I'll respond. "Should be interesting."

I became

I wish I did not remember
but how could I forget
you would look at me
shake your head side to side
and with just one word

"beautiful"

...I would be.

Loving you is easy

Let me tell you a thing or two about loving you

it's the easiest thing I've had to do

no effort no tries no thoughts about goodbyes

I love...         and that's all I do.

You reach out, as only you can

You touch my face, my neck, my hand

Never too much; its perfect, your touch

Try as I may, I cannot withstand 

No matter the time of day or night

You enter the room, And I excite

I'm more like a brick, than candle wick

Never wavering. I am just light.

Good Things

Playing cards in the park
Intertwining fingers on the subway.
Making each other laugh. Pure laughter.

These are the things that I love.

Attending any event with you. In a bar. At a wedding.
Gazing at you across the room.
Locking in, as I catch you gazing right back.
You noticing everything.

These are the things that I love.

Talking in bed til late
My forehead touching yours.
Mornings.

These are the things that I love.

Warming your cold hands in mine
Warming your nose
Feeling beautiful because of you.

This is love.

welcome, sun

The sun burst through the window this morning. Unexpected!

I knew it would turn eventually.
This sky.

I knew it would be fine, sure.
After much
                   hoping
                   wishing
                   for a change.

Welcome, sun.
Your affable light assures me.
Finally growing unafraid to bask,
Confident in these new rays.

The warmth,
                   caressing hands on my face.
The light,
                   gently running its' fingers through my hair.

You awakened me and I woke up smiling.