Sparkling slate against a sea of white
Two bright eyes greet me, smiling
My favorite part of the day is morning.
Rainy Day Sunday
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Jump
Jump, girl. Jump! (he shouts from below)
But there is no net! No parachute!
May I catch you? (he asks, eyebrows engaged)
Will you?
No response
She glances at her current surroundings.
Familiar. Comfortable. Fine.
Jump, girl, jump!
Her eyes wander over the tips of her toes and into the abyss below.
Can't see too much.
He stands down there looking up.
The brightness surrounding him more blurry in this fog
She fingers the scar below her collar bone. A reminder of her last jump... and she recalls the bright colors, fresh scents, sweetest tastes...
Memory tells her the roses were exquisite.
But the thorns -- thorns.
Her hand lingers over the scar.
A deep breath.
It is fine here. Comfortable. Safe.
She backs away from the edge.
She hears his footsteps retreat.
But there is no net! No parachute!
May I catch you? (he asks, eyebrows engaged)
Will you?
No response
She glances at her current surroundings.
Familiar. Comfortable. Fine.
Jump, girl, jump!
Her eyes wander over the tips of her toes and into the abyss below.
Can't see too much.
He stands down there looking up.
The brightness surrounding him more blurry in this fog
She fingers the scar below her collar bone. A reminder of her last jump... and she recalls the bright colors, fresh scents, sweetest tastes...
Memory tells her the roses were exquisite.
But the thorns -- thorns.
Her hand lingers over the scar.
A deep breath.
It is fine here. Comfortable. Safe.
She backs away from the edge.
She hears his footsteps retreat.
Saturday Morning Hangover in Brooklyn
Sitting on a bench in Cobble Hill park watching a child's birthday party. All the Brooklyn parents - around my age... Maybe a few years older. The kids ranging from 0-4 years old. The dads remind me of my college friends as they chat over pizza and the Moms hold babies & chat too. Everyone calling after the kids that wander too far away... Milo! Marlow! Ruby! Ella! Come back over here.
I sit on this bench, eat my bagel & nurse this hangover... feeling like I wandered into a film. "This is your life" had you chosen door #1. This is the ghost of the future or the past or the something... You live in our building, on our street, in our neighborhood, but we don't inhabit the same world.
Its time for the kids' naps as the party comes to a close and I head home for my nap too.
I sit on this bench, eat my bagel & nurse this hangover... feeling like I wandered into a film. "This is your life" had you chosen door #1. This is the ghost of the future or the past or the something... You live in our building, on our street, in our neighborhood, but we don't inhabit the same world.
Its time for the kids' naps as the party comes to a close and I head home for my nap too.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
The/m/en
First there was he.
And he found me.
And now you.
I can't find you.
And he found me.
He was there for so long that we became we.
And then he wasn't there at all.
And then he wasn't there at all.
Thankfully.
After he, I searched for him.
I found him unexpectedly
when I wasn't even trying to see
Him and I became a we and I was sure I'd never be
without him again.
Until I was.
I thought him someone he wasn't.
And now you.
I can't find you.
There was he and there was him and now all I do is search for you.
You seem to be so sure. So real.
But where are you?
You are not.
Here.
You are not.
Here.
You can come find me.
I am done looking for you, as I am done with he and him before.
I am done looking for you, as I am done with he and him before.
I've found me
and she
is better than (all of) you.
I shouldn't need more.
and she
is better than (all of) you.
I shouldn't need more.
Friday, May 2, 2014
Emerged / Caged
Just when I thought you were vanished. A whisper. A cloud.
You appear.
Cheeks aglow.
Smiling.
Happy.
On a hike
with a ring
in a box.
Innocent new girl by your side.
Something to feed on.
You - Revived.
Alive.
In my head, always dead. Or a monster. Partly caged.
And that poor girl, smile like a song.
Not realizing her sentence.
Monsters roam free. But not long for she.
You appear.
Cheeks aglow.
Smiling.
Happy.
On a hike
with a ring
in a box.
Innocent new girl by your side.
Something to feed on.
You - Revived.
Alive.
In my head, always dead. Or a monster. Partly caged.
And that poor girl, smile like a song.
Not realizing her sentence.
Monsters roam free. But not long for she.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Still Here
You were gone.
You died.
You were gone and died the day we cried and said goodbye
And then right there
I swear
A pair
A pair
of your pants
Reappears
Like you are still here
Still here?
My greatest fearsReappears
Like you are still here
Still here?
revived
But how
could you be alive?
In my chest, little drummers
Beat inside
How did you get here
I made myself clear
You are dead
You died
Only I survived
What you left behind
Monday, July 16, 2012
Text Message Apology
"Sry?" No, thank you.
That's not an apology.
I'm worth more letters.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Where we are now
It really is over, I think, as I hang up the phone.
Was that a stranger? Or the man I can't let go of?
"Looking forward to it," you responded. "Yeah. Should be interesting."
Like I'm a host - interviewing you on your latest project?
Or a girl fiddling her pony tail, making small talk after your show in the theater lobby?
I guess it is over.
I guess it really is.
I needed to hear how far we have come.
Away.
You a bit faster than I.
Definitely ahead (If not speeding away)
From our shared life, shared bed.
I guess it is over.
I am sure I knew
but ached
for anything else to be true.
I know I changed the future once. Can you ache so hard you change the present too?
This time machine is whirling. I'm not even sure how I got inside,
but I know I'm the one who opened the door.
Do I regret it now?
Or will I feel relief when I exit on the other end and shake hands with my future self?
Thank you, she'll say.
Welcome to Love. Welcome to Life.
"Looking forward to it," I'll respond. "Should be interesting."
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
I became
I wish I did not remember
but how could I forget
you would look at me
shake your head side to side
and with just one word
"beautiful"
...I would be.
but how could I forget
you would look at me
shake your head side to side
and with just one word
"beautiful"
...I would be.
Friday, March 2, 2012
Loving you is easy
Let me tell you a thing or two about loving you
it's the easiest thing I've had to do
no effort no tries no thoughts about goodbyes
I love... and that's all I do.
You reach out, as only you can
You touch my face, my neck, my hand
Never too much; its perfect, your touch
Try as I may, I cannot withstand
No matter the time of day or night
You enter the room, And I excite
I'm more like a brick, than candle wick
Never wavering. I am just light.
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